Aftermath.

Decided to blog for the satisfaction of actually doing something productive while I wait for my next class at 2:30. While I was meandering around the city trying to find something to do before I had to go to work, I realized that life is depreciated. It's ridiculous how many people walk in and out of these high end stores and spend immense amount of money for some Prada shoes or a Fendi bag, those are all lovely things I must say. I may sound ironic right now (but don't judge me by my pictures!) but I don't need to walk the streets with a Gucci bag or loafers, I am proud to walk in my size 3Y Van skippys I got at Beacons Closet for ten bucks. Life isn't about the labels and lines, in my opinion your worth shouldn't be determined by the price of your clothes. I'm rich at heart baby, believe that.

So, the aftermath. Working 2 jobs and being a full-time college student is quite the burden on my shoulders. Two jobs are really nonessential right now, but I love being productive rather than staying home on a Tuesday night watching Will & Grace or King of the Hill. After this whole summer, I realized this year could have been better if I had some sense. At one point at the end of the summer, I started to feel like a burn out, yes I smoke ciggs and weed, but not a pothead burn out..per say.

It was more of a inside feeling, waking up worried or stressed because of work, school, and my prior relationship. I wanted to wake up to a new day, ecstatic for another adventure to begin but so much was on my mind at night I couldn't even think right. Maybe it's the mistakes I've made this year or how I didn't hold back when I knew I should've. But that's how we grow into better people, learning from your mistakes, taking it in and embracing the fact that life isn't ending right now. One chapter ends, one chapter unfolds. I realized that I shouldn't dwell on my past because it governs a negative future. I gained out of this whole year from what we had was a great experience. Life has it's come and go's, I'm ready to take my heart off my sleeve and start a new adventure.